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‘And I chose to fight for what I wanted. I wanted to have good relationships. I wanted to love the people in my life. I wanted to enjoy my job.

‘I wanted to enjoy being a dad and having friends and just getting up in the morning. Because that was a struggle for me.’

-Chester Bennington via The Mirror

    When Chester Bennington died, the frontman of Linkin Park, there was a surge of viewpoint about depression and his death. Social media newsfeeds are lined with news and stories about the musician’s apparent suicide and the hints he could have given through the songs he has written. A couple of months back, his friend and lead vocalist for Soundgarden, Chris Cornell killed himself.

Key facts about depression:

• As of this time, depression is the most common mental illness in the world. This silent yet lethal demon has affected more than 300 million people worldwide.

• It is said to be a disease contributing to a worldwide global disability.

• A greater number of women are affected as compared to men.

• Some medicines can treat depression.

• It is not a fleeting emotion and it tends to lead to suicide; killing both Chris Cornell and Chester Bennington.

What is the cause of depression?

     Depression is a combination of a lifetime of mental conditioning, the environment, biological and recent or life-long events. It is a mixture of personal factors and the changes in our brain or an imbalance in our chemical make-up. Every experience is unique, and every recovery is different. It is a snowflake.

Quoted below is a recent Facebook comment I’ve posted (edited out names).

    “I was diagnosed with major depressive disorder in 2004. The Doctor told me it was (a) chemical imbalance. He prescribed Prozac, Xanor and Stilnox and something else (I forgot). January 2005, I downed my remaining Stilnox with rum then slit my wrists. 2008 I got married and gave birth to my son. 2010 I got divorced. They think I might take my life again. But my son became my anchor and my purpose in life.

    The medicine only made me numb for a while. It conditioned my mind to do what I was supposed to do but not what for.

    Until my friend, who is 8500 mi. away from me, told me straightforwardly how my son saved me and uprooted me from my emotional addiction.

    He stirred me away from thoughts of being the victim and slapped the sense of entitlement out of my system. He did not feed my demons; he showed me an alternate route so to speak. He introduced me to myself.

    My way of recovery is not true for everybody, but please do not dismiss the possibility.”

    Chester Bennington said ‘I wanted to enjoy being a dad and having friends and just getting up in the morning. Because that was a struggle for me.’ Yes, he was depressed, but he had a reason to live. Did he commit suicide? Or was he murdered? Now that is another blog post in the making.